A Hooker’s Tale of Self-doubt
Have you ever been so excited about starting a new job, relationship, hobby, or adventure? Did you buy new outfits, gear, or supplies in hopes to be perfect for what your future holds? Then, as you get more involved, you begin to doubt yourself as an employee, significant other, or hobbyist? Maybe thoughts like, “What was I thinking?” start playing on repeat? Yeah, that was me this past month.
The video shows me undoing a purse I spent hours crocheting. I didn’t notice a mistake in the seam until I was almost finished. No one enjoys this sad task of unraveling, known as frogging. Amy Solovay explains this technique perfectly here https://www.thesprucecrafts.com/what-is-frogging-in-crochet-978564
Ugh! “What am I doing trying to sell crochet when I haven’t had much experience?” “I can’t do this.” These were my thoughts while I was pulling apart each and every stitch. I had spent the month trying to get my business running while completing orders. Yet, it seemed so many tasks required every bit of effort, and I was struggling to feel successful. The purse mishap was the final thing that caused me to question my decision to start this little crochet gig.
I have failed at various things in the past years, so that negative talk has been a go-to way of thinking for far too long. When things become difficult, my automatic thought is to give up and question myself. NOT THIS TIME! Get back, satan! Although I have so much to learn about crocheting and small business, I am good at this hooking stuff. There is going to be times of frogging and times of frustration, but there cannot be times of self-doubt. This is by far the most exciting thing I have done since my illnesses took hold of my body.
Read my post to see why crocheting is good stuff! /http://spunkyowl.com/why-crochet/
You may be starting off on a different path in your life. New is scary sometimes. Yet, if we never try what is new, we never know what we are capable of achieving. So, shut down that negative voice in your head and do your thing.
By the way, I picked up my crochet hook again and made a beautiful purse.